These were his confessions...
We were best of friends... and we became more than friends...
Although, one of the saddest things in life, the greatest mistake that I ever made, was to be so damn depressed and be in pain when all he did was try his very best to keep me happy.
I let all go. Threw it out in the darkest part of my memories.
I have the inability control my negative emotions (i.e., anger, sadness, fear, panic). Once I get an episode, I tend to regress. I isolate myself from the world and its goodness. In-casing myself in my own warmth.
He loved me once... and he will never love me again. That's what I've realized.
He loves another. Stronger, better, funnier... all that he ever needed.
He stayed as a friend. But what did I do?
I pushed him away.
too much hurt, too much pain... too much sadness to remain. so there was nothing else I could do but eliminate it.
I asked him to Leave me alone. Let me be...
I was happy without him... I'll be happy with him out of my life...
I love someone else as well and I need to put that in mind... without him reminding me of the past... of the pain I inflicted upon myself. My Masochistic nature.
I guess... I knew all along who and When I say "Goodbye" and "I love you" to...
and sometimes... "I love you" meant... "Goodbye"...
